It started on Tuesday at 10:00 pm and ended at 5:28 p.m. on Friday...and it was worth every minute. Our Braden James was born into the world at 5:28 p.m. and he flutter kicked himself all of the way out! He was 6 lbs 8 oz and he is 19 inches long. And, I believe that to look into his face is looking into the face of an infant that I never got to see until now....his Mother. He has her square little face, her turned up nose, the worry line on the right side of her brow, his disproportionately large feet and tiny little chubby toes are just like his Mommy's, along with his ears - where every part is just like hers, all the way down to the tiny little earlobes and little crook a the top of her ear. And he has her soft, brown hair, and the start of her long eye lashes....AND...the one thing that he did NOT have was the cleft in his palate....Thank Goodness!
He does have a darling little cleft chin...a gift from his Daddy.
Letting go of my little girl and acknowledging the fact that she is...and has to be a young woman...has been extraordinarily difficult. I have grown to know that I have not had to give up on
my dreams for her, but instead I have had to arrange and actually ADD to them. But I was not and am not ready to have her grow into adulthood. it is overwhelming to me to acknowledge this forced maturity...I am so proud of her and so completely sad about the fact that she is growing up so fast. It is the most turbulent set of emotions I have ever experienced.
I have to say that another trait that Braden and his mother share is that male role-models will be imperative. Braden will need to follow in his mother's footsteps and watch the important men in his life show him how to grow up to be a fine, faithful and productive member of his society. He will need to watch these men who have been so good about showing his Mommy about responsibility, integrity, education, and most-importantly, faith. He will need to learn to accept the fact that things are not always the way they are in story books, but families come in all shapes and sizes.
I have had one of the absolute best times of my life and one of the absolutely most terrifying experiences of my life. I have learned what unconditional and immediate love looks like when it is being observed in it's purest level. I have been as proud of my daughter as I have ever been and I have seen with my own eyes what it is like when someone is trying to do the right thing, when they are not sure that they really want too.
I also know what it is like to go for six days with only six hours of sleep. Therefore, I am going to bed.
More later.
Welcome to the world my precious Grandson. AND......WELCOME HOME!!!
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